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Willow’s Ninth Month Update

This month Willow has been having a lot of firsts.She played in sand and the paddling for the first time and she had the best time ever,she was so excited!

She’s picked up the speed with her crawling and she’s started standing up on her own two feet with no support.

She has also started doing little dances and its the darn cutest thing I ever did see.

Being the little cheeky monkey she is she is always in everything and opening the drawers.

Her new favourite toy is a laalaa from the teletubbies soft toy,it talks and frankly its really creepy. Her favourite game is knocking down tower blocks and laughing at me in the process.

She’s finally started feeding herself her bottles! She would rather not though,of course.

Apparently she has forgotten the word ‘Mama’ since the last update and she’s always saying ‘Dada’ so alrighty then(!)

But my Einstein says so many words now,its actually hard to keep up! Some of them are hi,hiya,bye,yeah,no,Dada,Mama,Emma, Drink, DinDin and ‘whats that?’

When asked if she has done a poo,she will lie and say no then laugh as she crawls at super speed to hide behind the sofa.

She has started pointing at everyone and everything,its absolutely adorable and she loses it and starts laughing like crazy when you point back at her.

Food wise,she really really loves pasta! Her wee italian side is showing (Her Dad,not me unfortunately)

Speaking of her italian side, I AM SO JEALOUS OF HOW WELL SHE TANS. WHAT THE HECK?!

A few days ago,she kept going behind the sofa, I eventually moved it to see what was soooo interesting that she had to keep going there. Turns out-she had a secret stash of her snack foods from earlier that day and kept going back when she wanted them..

If you read the Eighth Month Update, you’ll know she kept passing out. The past month,she’s only passed out twice as opposed to the passing out daily as she was doing back then! As for the dimple at the bottom of her spine,we still haven’t heard back with a hospital appointment.

Our health visitor finally weighed her and she weighs 16lb 3oz! She also mentioned that Willow is really advanced for her age and I feel like the proudest Mama on earth.

She’s also being booked in for an eye test as she has a bit of a lazy eye and a hearing test as routine due to my own hearing loss!

Its so mad how babies have personalities from the first day and as a parent you can just tell instantly what their likes and dislikes are. Willow has never been much of a cryer and that still stands to this day. She will accidentally smack herself in the face and not give a shit,then I’ll be sat there trying to hold back tears.

I would also like to mention that I do keep some stuff to myself in terms of what she does as I don’t feel like sharing every little accomplishment and achievement but I do tweet daily about her and shes always on my snapchat doing cute stuff!

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Donating My Eggs At 19?

Hi guys,

That is so weird. I literally never say hi, I just jump right in with the post usually but this post felt like it needed a little introduction.

On June 2nd 2017, I saw an advert on Facebook about Egg Donors. I don’t know why but I felt drawn and just needed to click on it. I read the comments filled with peoples stories of infertility and I was heartbroken. Some of these stories didn’t have happy endings but others said egg donations enabled them to become parents.

I remembered the day the two lines showed up on my pregnancy test,that instant need to protect Willow set in. The first time I saw her on the scan and the disbelief that my own tiny human baby was growing inside me. Finally,the day she was born and placed in my arms for the first time,that instant connection,overwhelming love and forever bond.

I thought about that and how amazing it is to become a parent. I then imagined what it would be like to not be able to because of the menopause or infertility.

I thought about my Mum and the struggle she went through to get pregnant with me. I might not have been there but my parents had been together from 17, she was trying for years after they wed and didn’t conceive me until she was 28 thanks to a fertility drug. (She has four of us now!)

Unfortunately,fertility drugs and IVF don’t work for everyone and an egg or sperm donor is another way to have that forever love.

I’ve always said if a family member or a friend needed a surrogate then I’d do it in an absolute heartbeat. No hesitation. Hell, I’d do it for an absolute stranger if the timing was right.

Why should donating eggs be any different to that? I still get to help people do the greatest role of all..minus the pregnancy.

I read the websites FAQ and found out the answers to all my questions. It was absolutely something I needed and wanted to do. I had this idea that if I could help someone,whether it was one family or ten (ten families is the limit each donor has)then I was going to bloody do it. Nothing was going to stop me from helping other families grow.

This in no way changes any future plans I have to grow my own family and give Willow siblings some day. I still intend on having 3 or more of my own but whilst I’m not expanding my brood..I can help others start and complete theres and I think theres something extremely beautiful about that.

As for people who think I’ll have children all up and down the world by doing this..you’re extremely wrong. I personally believe to be a parent, you have to do the raising and nurturing. You have to be there for milestones and birthdays,the falls and the fallouts. I would just be the donor helping these people become Mum’s and Dad’s.

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Screenshot from manchesterdonors.com

I ended up applying after receiving the backing of my Mum and boyfriend. I’m currently waiting to hear back with my first appointment! Fingers crossed everything goes well and I can continue with this incredible journey.

 

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First Mothers Day

This post is a little late,everyone else has posted theres already but oh well. My First Mothers Day with Willow was one of the best days of this year so far.

That morning I didn’t have her as she had stayed over at her Grandparents the previous night,so I got a lie in and it was great. When she did come home I was attacked with cuddles and snuggles,she was super clingy and chatty as usual.

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My Grandparents bought me a huge collaged picture frame thingy,a photo album and had some pictures done from when she was a newborn in hospital. My phone wiped all of her photo’s from the first days off my phone so seeing them made me so happy,even if they were of my relatives holding her and not me,just seeing how tiny she was and how much she’s grown is insane.

It was a pretty normal day as a whole to be honest. We didn’t do anything particularly special like Mothers Day lunch or anything. But it was perfect for us.

She has completely changed my life for the better and I love every single second of every single day with her. There is no love like the love you have for your own child. I’d been told that ever since I was really young but I never understood until now.

The past seven months have had some incredible highs and some awful lows but becoming a Mum,has been by far,the best thing in the world.